whoa we're halfway there

[isozyme]

 (whoa oh god, pray for me)

two of the four figures done for the Monster Project!

the other two need to get done TODAY, because everything is due tomorrow at 10am.  luckily they're the smaller ones where I don't have to do much (if any) actual drawing.  boss wants a phylogenetic tree, we'll see how THAT goes.  she might have to settle for a table.


UDATE ON THE MENTAL STATE OF ISOZYME:

i wandered away from this post to work on more figures, and in the meantime several goddamn hours have passed basically without me noticing, and i'm up to 3.5 finished figures.  the phylogenetic tree happened, PLUS i hand-drew animal illustrations for every branch.  the last figure is just arranging pictures.

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thank you, ADHD medicines.  wait!!! did i tell dw that i have a new medicine?  I HAVE NEW MEDS, Y'ALL.  i can focus like a motherfucker now.  my mood is up, too.  fuck yeah stimulants.  do i have an appetite?  wellllllll we're working on it.  are they disrupting my sleep?  who knows!!! i have too much work to consider insomnia a possibility!!!!  i'm more scattered while taking them, and i feel like i mis-speak more?  but i'm way happier and I WILL TAKE IT

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the distant call of "LOOSE HORSE"

[manyblinkinglights]

ALSO THE THING WHERE YOU MIS-SPEAK MORE! It's so weird, I used to notice more--guess I've adjusted--but I used to really perceive that my threshhold for saying something out loud WHILE ALONE got lower, medicated? I'd be like driving to class and like lowkey vocalizing a syllable here and there occasionally, but my "SHUT UP AND LISTEN ACTIVELY" coping strategies proved robust enough to keep it from burbling out in company.

also hand-drawn animal illustrations for every tree sounds peak medicated ADHD. you WANT to, and, bewilderingly, you find you CAN, and your reflexes are all still set to "GO GO GO" like military people ordering each other around in the movies. that the-loose-horse-is-you emotion